The reason I didn’t want to be a nutritionist.

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I always knew that when I was finished dancing I would move into something to do with health and wellbeing. Because of my passion for healthy food I was 100% certain I would become a nutritionist. (And so did everyone else I believe.) I wanted to teach people how good you can feel just by shifting things in your diet. (It truly is amazing.)

Last year when I decided I wanted to pursue this next chapter I looked into courses and degrees. I felt so excited but when I went to check these places out it just didn’t feel right.

I kept thinking about it and flipping between studying naturopathy and nutritional medicine. I couldn’t decide because neither felt 100% right. I was so annoyed because I thought I had this all mapped out! What was I going to do if the one thing I thought I wanted to study didn’t feel right? The thing I knew for sure was that I wanted to help people.

Around the same time I was slowly making the discovery/realisation that my eating was disordered. I had struggled with food and body image for what felt like my whole life. I had eaten healthily, perfectly healthily at times, but it never mattered. I was never truly glowing with health because of my turbulent relationship to food, my body and myself.

I drank green smoothies, ate lots of veggies, cooked from scratch, ate good fats, didn’t touch sugar, didn’t drink alcohol, the list goes on. I followed all the rules! If I wrote out a food diary you would have thought I was amazingly healthy. But the truth is I could only maintain these perfectionist super strict ways for a short amount of time and the pendulum would have to swing back the other way. I was either really healthy, or really not. I didn’t know how to be any other way. I was totally out of balance.

I dealt with secret eating, emotional eating, self loathing and feeling riddled with guilt and embarrassment.

I use to think:

I’m ‘the healthy one’! What the hell is wrong with me. I know how to eat, I know when to eat it, why can’t I just do it all the time?

I thougt I had to be perfect or there was no point. I was NEVER happy with my body, and I’ve been in great physical shape at times, but it was never ever enough for my perfectionist standards. I never practised loving my body, so it wasn’t going to magically start happening just because I lost weight. I always felt embarrassed about myself, my crazy eating behaviours and what others thought of me.

It wasn’t until I started rebuilding my relationship to food, releasing these old patterns and finding confidence in my body that I thought:

Aha! THIS is what I need to do. 

Eating psychology. I need to help people who are going through the same thing. I GET it. It’s obvious by now that I have been there, my love. And I know you could have the best nutritional knowledge in the world, but if you have a crappy relationship with food and your body you are never going to find the healthy glow you’re seeking.

I am so glad I listen to my intuition and didn’t force myself into doing something that didn’t feel right, because I am literally bursting with passion when I think about helping people transform their relationship to food. That’s where the magic happens.

I just can’t wait to share more and more with you the more I study and learn.

 

Jess
xo

6 thoughts on “The reason I didn’t want to be a nutritionist.

  1. Is Eating Psychology a degree you can enroll in? I am a Sydney based health nut too! This sounds right up my alley, I would love to see what degree or course you have found that will help you achieve this goal? Can you send me a link?

  2. This is all SO relatable. I am currently doing uni tours, looking at nutrition and dietetics. Feeling the same, like something just doesn’t sit right. Would love information about the Eating Psychology degree youre doing.

  3. You’re area of work is so important for so many people! I want to say girls in particular, but it seems to be widespread in society these days. So glad I found your website!

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